for/based on riseofgallifrey: Lost

[roselikeschips]

I don't know where I am...

I don't think I care really...

After what I did...what I said...

I don't even know how to feel anymore...what to feel...

I'm empty.

Broken.

I wish this never happened.

I wish I was back home...on Powell Estate...a shop girl...with Mickey, and mum...

I wish I never ran into him...that man with the big ears and leather jacket, and goofy grin, and steel blue eyes that seemed to see straight into my soul...the same ones that turned to a deep brown that seemed to show so much emotion, and though he could never say it out loud....love.

Every smile, every touch...I wish I'd never seen them, felt them...because then...

It wouldn't hurt so much to look at the face of the half human version of him.

It wouldn't hurt so much to know everything I know, to have seen everything I've seen...

I'm lost...

...no really... I'm lost!

I don't know where I am!